Speechless Emotional

I have been so busy lately – no, not doing homework because I got that in the bag; no, not because of overthinking stupid things, I got over that; no, not worrying about my hunger strike, I eat now; no, not because of the guild, I really got that in my pockets; no, not because of the stupid poem we need to memorize; and no, not because of STUPIDER things like uhm, school. You know what I’ve been so busy about? Rats. Like, rat poop. I mean seriously, I got no yaya so that means no one does the chores at home and the rats come out and play. There’s a massive “tambak” of unwashed laundry down the hamper.

Despite the lack of time (btw, Time is my greatest enemy FOR REAL. URRRGGHH!!) and energy, I was able to compose a poem. It’s dedicated to a person.

I trashed you.
And stashed you.
I still want you.
That’s why I found out I needed you

I know things are gone
But new things have come
And I’m happy
That you came back to me

You’re the only one in my heart
Who needs to play the part
Who cares to show me how you feel
Throughout the drawbacks you stood still

The world crashed before my eyes
And I thank God for bringing you to my life
I know that days come and you stay
And I’m speechless, got nothing to say

As I write songs to express,
My emotions got too much to address
All I know is that when you’re there, it’s true
By the way, I think I’m in love with you.


P.S Thanks for making me feel like I’m the best creature in the world! Even if that poem isn’t all that of a masterpiece, I wouldn’t care. I’d make it my last blog post if that’s a request; because I already asked too much requests from you. I’m just glad you’re there. That’s all there is to say.

And my nerves thump as I write this…

Don’t ever, ever go away. Please don’t.