BOOM!

She's coming back again. She's HERE again. She's ruling over me again. She promised me to stay HERE for only ONE night. And I don't think I can handle her.

SHE? HER? I'm guessing you have no clue at all. Well, it has to be LARGE and HUGE because I'm writing like TWO posts for the night. She HAPPENS to be the doppelganger I mentioned in my other blog post "Fictional Autobiography of a Teenage B". And it's not my fault she's back. QUICK! Lemme get this down before she attacks. OH WAIT. She has already possessed me. And whatever you will be reading for the rest of this evening (after this paragraph) is HER writing. HER post. HER wrath.

Enjoy.

I was wrong. Boy I was wrong.

My target way back was easy. She was weak and vulnerable and easy to pulverize with my perfect shiny, metallic angel-spawned, pistol-lookalike crossbow. I aimed it at her. She died.

But not quite...

I won, really. I did. I killed her. But then I didn't know she had a doppelganger too. And her doppelganger was like MY doppelganger. It was bad and it was good. It was in many ways wrong and in many ways right. So I let go of her.

Hell I still ain't gonna care.

My crossbow MUST explode soon for it has reached its caged, bounded limits. It's time to wreak havoc. It's time to cause chaos. It's time to make war.

TO HELL WITH YOU!

And no, I have not found a target. Or let's just say everyone's my target. Shoot me. Before I shoot you first.

Why don't you kill me now? So we both end our misery?

Shut up before I stitch your lips using the nails of a dead man as the needle and the hair of a dead corpse as the fabric. And then stitch it up some more with the eternal flame of life. SHUT UP before I get my crossbow and stick it onto your mouth and morbidly engrave it there forever like a name engraved on a tombstone. Or whatever the heck you call that. I don't care. And you're not supposed to, either. Just shut up. I don't need to hear your words. Matter of fact, I'd be glad - ecstatic even if you ask me to bazooka them back to where they came from: from Hell (remember?). Then I'd stuff you back there to where you belong. Where? Hell.

One day, one day I'll lure you into my traps.


-- END --

Catherine's note: I read this all over again and I realized HOW EVIL my doppelganger was (and is). And shoot, I can't believe she said all those stuff. Catherine "Cath"(I), would never say those stuff. In fact, I'm actually scared for my alter ego. Hope she's not scared for me.

MISS-ery 2

As I said, there's gonna be more to come...more "i-miss-you's" and "i-miss-that-and-this's". They're all gonna come hitting soon. And my life is gonna be filled with emo and drama. Guess that's something you can't take away from girls like me.

Miss-List 2:

This is dedicated to my loyal guy friends who have been there more than my girl buddies have been (with the exception of a few like Arianne, Camille - my current BFF and one that I would VOW never to lose, Cha - another BFF, Bea, Steph "Sexy" and the others). They were there when I was sick - they even dropped by home twice just to see how I was doing and I am forever, eternally even, grateful for that very sweet gesture.

For that, I dedicate a whole post to them.

I'm gonna miss Kenny's DARK pessimistic days.

I'm gonna miss Aldric's crankiness.

I'm gonna miss Jake's ridiculous stories especially during AP when Ma'am Ileto discusses (ha!).

I'm gonna miss Paul's cheerfulness.

I'm gonna miss Mollie's "BFF-ness". I have no idea how to describe this, I don't even know if I should include him here 'cause he's THE BEST FRIEND. I think it has to be separated.

I'm gonna miss Edgardo's lust for knowledge (hahaha LAUGH AT THIS, EGGY!).

I'm gonna miss Jake's stories about Brue (Rach).

I'm gonna miss Kenny's weirdness.

I'm gonna miss turning Aldric optimistic.

I'm gonna miss Mollie for being ALWAYS on my side even when the world crumbled and wiped my wit, money and soul to DUST. That one thing's already ten times the regular.

I'm gonna miss Matthew's "wit" (Remember Friendster? Remember the Biotech seminar? "Pointy Hair!").

I'm gonna miss Jake's LPU-ness and his total admittance of that fact.

I'm gonna miss Kenny's late night YMs.

I'm gonna miss arguing with Paul about the silliest things.

I'm gonna miss telling them all about my ugly, foul day.

I'm gonna miss their making me feel better. ALWAYS. (Never has there been a day without them cheering me up or trying to cheer me up).

I'm gonna miss Aldric's sending me stuff that are way beyond my league (like Paula Abdul's newest song!).

I'm gonna miss laughing with them ALL.

I'm gonna miss making THEM laugh.

I'm gonna miss hating them. Well, because it's natural for girls to hate guys.

I'm gonna miss their constant ANNOYING-ness and plain...(the word to use is WEIRD)...absurdness!

I'm gonna miss hanging out with them.

I'm gonna miss just being with them.

I'm gonna miss their "changing" because of me.

I'm gonna miss their problems.

I'm gonna miss psychoanalyzing their problems.

I'm gonna miss loving them. (DO NOT CRINGE, PLEASE. Girls say this all the time to their FRIENDS).

I'm gonna miss just being ... ALWAYS the only girl in the group.


SPECIAL:

I am so not sure if I should include this above because I really don't consider him a guy friend - WILSON. I'm gonna miss Wilson's massive girly-ness.

I'm gonna miss hearing Wilson call everyone "ate".

I'm gonna miss lending Wilson my always-low-battery dictionary.

SPECIAL SPECIAL:

Mollie - I don't know how to say this, but, best friend is different from best guy friend. There's just a fine line I cannot cross to explain or differentiate it.

I'm gonna miss Mollie as a best friend. And I hope we won't float far away from each other. By distance, he's already far away (when I said distance, I meant he was like 30 meters away from me. LITERALLY!). I don't wanna let distance hinder friendship, or love for that matter.

There's just too much to say that leaves me nothing to come up with.

I'm gonna miss my best friend.

Peace, Love....Contemporary Rock!

Note: This was supposed to be published on Feb. 14, 2007. But I wrote it on Feb. 13, 2007. Well, today is Feb. 15 and I'm sick AGAIN and absent AGAIN. And I'm bored AGAIN (can't do much when you're chronically SICK like me you know)

I'm sick, like right now. It's 11:30 in the morning and I'm out of school. That only means something, I have the time off!! Finally, a break! Finally, I had a good sleep last night! I really don't wanna think of anything else right now except for relaxing. The past few months have been as tense as inferno. And inferno wouldn't be a fair "punishment" because I haven't done anything like MAJOR WRONG. Hey, it's not my fault I'm sleeplessly stressed!

I'd miss FOUR quizzes today. But it doesn't matter to me that much right now...

Anyway, I think I'm sick. Like, I may be spawning a chronic disorder within my dysfunctional veins. You see, a few minutes ago, I was researching about the Ear for Bio and then I saw something I might have. ALL of the symptoms showed me.

I realized something again: I am so paranoid.

Last summer I thought I had cancer, for Pete's sake! LOL! Seriously...

Moving on, right NOW, I think I might have something neurological. Which sucks, if you ask me. Since I already have tinnitus. Both are involving the EAR. Suddenly. I find myself falling for Biology.

In my free time, which is NOW, I take the chance to honor Music - it who soothes the savage beast in me. And this savage headache as well. More importantly, I position the limelight on ROCK. I define "rock" differently, though. It's not high-strung strumming of guitars like metallic rock. In fact, it has taken on a new form. I don't know what that form is, really. I just know one thing, ROCK is the most emotional, most proliferating genre in Music EVER. It just continues growing emotionally. And if you could notice, it's the one genre that expresses much emotion unlike R&B who's just meant to ease... Unlike Pop, which just POPS! Unlike anything else.

Rock is a part of my life now. Having said that, I say it's not just a music genre, but also a WAY OF LIFE.

This is a tribute to all my first-loves in Rock.

1.) OneRepublic

I used to hate 'em. But I guess the more you hate the more you love. That ALWAYS works for me. The more you hate thing? Yeah, it always does.

What I Like About Em: The lead singer Ryan Tedder adds to the ear and eye candy. I mean it, his voice is like so ... emotional and full of potential in every way possible. Their lyrics are not only poetic, they're not "Shakespearean" type too. Mind you, Shakespearean type poetic is getting overrated nowadays. Plus, people who use it, I believe are MERELY putting together words that seem and LOOK deep, but lack profundity.

Writers nowadays tend to find depth in depth. That just doesn't work 'cause it looks like you're just copying others' works. You all know how much I hate copying right? One's style, one's looks, one's opinions? You can't copy those. And I'm glad OneRepublic keeps themselves caged from that lane. Unlike others around here...

Favorite Single: It's so hard to decide! Definitely, it's not "Apologize" because it's too common now. I guess it's "All We Are". It's an unreleased single.


2) Fall Out Boy

What I Like About 'Em: Other than having Pete Wentz's presence, I like 'em because they make wonderful music together - yes, all four of them. Every song they have is perfect. There's like no song in a Fall Out Boy album that I wouldn't come to love. Although their titles make no connection to their lyrics; and are usually long, they prove to be witty (example: Sophomore Slump or Comeback of the Year << style="font-weight: bold;">Favorite Single: Very hard to decide, seriously!! I mentioned before that I love all their songs, right? But I guess I love "I'm Like a Lawyer" the most.


3) Lifehouse


People say that they're a Christian Rock group, and many of their songs have been a subject under scrutiny because of that. But whatever. I don't even know what Christian Rock is.

What I Like About Em: Voice. Lead Singer (Jason Wade). Lyrics. Tempo. That's what I look for in Rock, anyway. Most of their songs are uber romantic. Those are the type of songs you'd listen to while watching the sunset. Sappy, emotional and just...contemporary rock. Besides, Jason's voice is so raspy. (I love him!)

Favorite Single: Hmmmm, hands down, it's "Chapter One". I love "Whatever it Takes" too.

4) Dashboard Confessional

What I Like About Em: Truth be told, I am in love with Chris Carrabba (Italian lead singer). He's like perfect. He writes his/their own songs, he composes his/their own tunes. And he's the most perfect, most poetic writer EVER. His lyrics are PERFECT. Very soothing songs, perfect when it's summer and you're in the mood for solitude and aloneness.

Their lyrics won't mean a thing if you don't listen to their music. (If only I weren't sick right now, I'd be squealing at the thought of Chris Carrabba)

Favorite Single: I could say this without THINKING!!! "Stolen", of course! Most romantic song ever. I loved the video to heck!

I love Chris!

5) Incubus

What I Like About Em: This band pretty much changed themselves to the top. Perfect evolution. At first I didn't like them, but with their latest songs, I've grown to love 'em! The lead singer's voice is, again, so (am looking for the right adjective to use) heart-stopping. (Haha)

Although their name is freaky and a li'l on the dark side (Incubus is a devil. What devil, you ask? Oh, let's not go there!), their songs aren't "dark" at all!

Favorite Single: Definitely, "Talk Shows on Mute".