Independence is Bliss

After days and days of stupid confusion, I am back! Not as the same person (it seems that every time I start a blog, I am a new person, damn) but maybe a little more……I cannot find the right words right now because I just watched TOO MUCH of “The Phantom of the Opera”. There are millions of versions but the ones that I watched was the 1989 remake which was so gory and the 2004 remake wherein the Phantom did NOT look scary at all (cue Gerard Butler!).

The cure for my listlessness was a MOVIE MARATHON. How stupid of me, I never thought of it before. Anyway, from now on, I will fall in love with every classical movie that exists.

And let us not forget “Becoming Jane” where Jane Austen has YET again glued my eyes to the tiny screen of that portable yet oh so stylish DVD player.

I just needed to erase the cleanliness of sanitary hospital walls – that’s where I “hung out” during the week of my absence from the Internet world because when your father’s a doctor who has the key to a secret, haunted bathroom (not kidding) and when your housekeeper just eloped, where would you go? – And rust that has formed in my mind for the past year/s.

So, bottom line is: I am free!!!!

Free from all of the pain, the stupidity, the foolishness and whatever-it-is-that-I-am-about-to-say-but-forgot-what.

All I have to worry about is keeping that blotched cockroach from going back to my bed room. Can you imagine? A white-spotted cockroach? Or maybe I was hallucinating – after all I am scared of cockroaches.

…the worst part is I get to kill it.

Welcome to My Life!

“Do you ever feel like breaking down? Do you ever feel out of place? Like somehow you just don’t belong and no one understands you.

No you don’t know what it’s like, when nothing feels alright. You don’t know what it’s like to be like me!

Welcome to my life”
- Welcome to My Life, a song by Simple Plan

I won’t grant you loneliness because I know how it feels like to be lonely. I won’t grant you pain because I have been pained before. I won’t grant you confusion because my mind had run heels over head once in my history. I won’t grant you too much love because too much of everything is bad – and I have crossed that path before. I won’t grant you discreet hate because I have been hated silently before and it’s a sin. I may not grant you ANYTHING at all but my humble blog posts and some bits and pieces of my life – CHANGE. That’s to play safe – because I was dangerous before.

But do not worry, maybe this post is fiction.

Or maybe it is fact.

I’m kidding, it’s non-fiction.

Don’t get confused!